I know I've been absent for a bit. Chalk it up to me being me...and life just being busy. I need to get back on focus with enjoying life instead of once again just crossing off that list!
I am a list maker and it seems that I have to be sure to cross things off in order to feel accomplished. Then, I add to the list, rewrite the list, re-prioritize the list, and well, it then just becomes another task and seems as if it is something that is just never ending for me to do. That is where I get overwhelmed and often abandon it...only to later recreate a new list! LOL! I have such a love/hate with those darned if you do darned if you don't lists!
Life shouldn't be about the next thing or lining up what we need to do. Yes, I understand that often we need to see what needs to be done and it is to help us stay focused. But sometimes we get caught up on that list and what is next without first enjoying the now. I need to learn to live in the moment and just take it all in.
I feel as though life is passing me by at an ever quickening pace...so much to do, so much I want to do and lots coming up. Upon looking at the summer schedule, we have something going on each month, almost every weekend, and for all Tuesday and Thursdays for two months we have baseball and softball, not to mention every Monday night is Mom's volleyball night! What happened to the lazy pace of summer?? No wonder I have yet to get my garden in and at this rate, I may just prep it for next year and hit up farmers market or enjoy the bounty of plenty from those I know! I've been working on my house...and along with projects come delays and more interruptions...along with more items on the list. Whew! And I wonder why those lists can be overwhelming?
I want life to slow down. My kids are at that great stage where they get life and can enjoy it. I don't have to wipe butts, they can hang out at home without a sitter and even make their own money! They enjoy mom, like to plan things with me and bring their friends around. I keep trying to create memories with them as my family really didn't do much...but I think that is some of my favorite memories, the freedom.to.JUST BE!
Life is good, get on with it!
